Weigh In

SOOOO, the moment of truth. I am 100 lbs today, I lost 3 lbs since tuesday and I'm feeling pretty spectacular about that. =)
My goal by next friday is 98 lbs
I can do this!!!!!

Thinspiration~~~

I'm going to put up some thinspo this time. Tommorow is weight day and also the first of 7 weekly updates in the summer slim down competition that i signed up for. I'm so anxious. After having gained weight from last week I'm scared to step on the scale again. I'll post a stats update tmr after i weight myself.

Hopefully this makes up for the eyesores i posted last time.

stay strong starve on!!

1 week cleanse

Soo, since i've been doing sooo terribly with bulima, i've decided that for 1 week i'm just going to ignore the thought of 'meals'. the though of 'today i will eat 3 small vegan meals and be done' no, that always screws me up. NO, for 1 week a meal is 100 calories or less and less is more. If it's a time i usually eat, i'll say no. Food is evil. I don't need food. Food will ruin me. It will make me fail my classes, it will turn me into a lard ass, it will turn me into a no-chinned-fat-slut like my roommate. No, food is failure. failure as a human being.

The only things i will eat:
mushrooms
green onions
fruits
non starch veggies
egg whites
sugar free frozen yogurt--only if i get dizzy

-no added sugar
-no added fat
-no starch or carbs

+ unlimited coffee, tea, diet drinks, sugar free water enhancers

Exercise: minimum of 1 hour per day (any of the following)

+walking
+dancing
+cardio machines
+toning exercises

My Motivation: ugly bitch ho reh-tards

So my motivation for becoming bones: to separate myself as much as I physically can from these incompetent ugly ass fuck tards: (reverse thinspo)

I know i probably sound really shallow right now. Well the truth is, I honestly don't judge someone by their weight, it's only when i have a problem with their personality, or presence that i go apeshit on hating them.  Once i find someone irritating, everything thing about them becomes a target of my irritation. the fact that they are in my opinion, ugly as fuck, only bothers me because i don't like who they are. (these are all girls by the way, and no i am not fucking kidding). I mean most of my friends are bigger than i am and it doesn't bother me at all, i don't think being fat or thin says anything about who you are as a person. I don't associate fat with lazy, stupid, ugly, unhealthy. No, fat and ugly only bother me when i already don't like who they are as a person. I mean after all, do you feel like being around someone that who in your opinion is (a/an)bitch,disgusting,immoral,socialretard,dumbass,oldman,incompetent,irritating,ho,ect]? I would think not.

Summer Slim Down Competition

So I am entering myself into this competion hosted by Sunshinechild. Hopefully this will help me kick my bulimia and lose some weight before it will become unacceptable to wear jackets everyday. It's a 51 day slim down competition and the people who lose the most %  of their body weight gets prizes. I don't really mind prizes, afterall, the weightloss is the real prize. My goal weights are:
GW1: 98
GW2:94
GW3:92
GW4:90
UGW88--31-22-32

Right now i'm 102, uggghhh 14lbs to go, 14 lbs to go.
I'm sooo tired of being such a fatass. I wish I could get a hold of that one chemical that stops addictions. I know there is such a thing. If I could get a bit of that, then maybe i'll stop my bulimia altogether and lose all this fat. Stupid bulima has made me gain almost 10 lbs by now. DX